Wednesday, March 25, 2009
pray?....pray.
how did i feel? indescribable. couldn't lose her...that would have been a travesty. more than one. it sat on my spirit allllll day. racked my brain. all i can do is pray. i mean it really is a lot but it doesn't seem that way. i don't want her to hurt like that, but why? sometimes God is working something out that no one can explain? who am i to intervene? i felt superhuman for 2 seconds. but reality is, i'm not. i'm me. but i was given the power to love. to nourish. to pray.....to pray. the prayers of a righteous man availith much. am i righteous? maybe that was my fear. i wasn't righteous enough for my prayers to work. ii think i am....or do i feel blah because i pray in need. or want. never simply because. now i'm effed up and sometimes. most of the time i cannot figure out why. i get so far in that i cant even see the exit. i know where it is but it seems too far. i hope. i want. i need to GET OUT. GET OUT. GET OUT.
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Girl yeah.... PRAY!
ReplyDeleteOpening the line of communication is the most important step. Sometimes after you have prayed take a moment to clear you mind and medicate. Filter out the many thoughts that engage our battlefield like mind. Learn the tone of the Lord's voice and take Power in knowing you've been heard.
Jesus is the best friend we will ever have, and he totally understands EVERYTHING. Even our selfishness sometimes. Sometimes we really know not what we do!
Girl yes you are righteous! Blessed and Highly favored in the Lord as well! He love's you and all the angels in Heaven are cheering for you! I just know it, but I'm sure they get sad when we don't realize it.